Just A Way of Saying Goodbye..

Hey guys...I dunno how to put this..but well a friend of mine passed away...I've known him for years,since I was a kid,he had cancer...first we all thought it was brain tumor but well...turns out it was cancer...I really2 got nothing to say...I just wanna I dunno...let this out...I dont know what...I just..feel so pathetic...I found out today on the 12th,he passed on the 8th,what kind of friend am I?! He was always nice to me! Use to always treat me to things...I just couldn't even say goodbye man,the last time I saw him was last year...Fuck I'm such a...I don't even know what...I wish I could have at least seen him....just to catch up on some things...to say thank you for everything...for being a brother to me all those years when I was small....I just...want to...So Nik Ahmad Naqiuddin...Rest In peace,Inna lillahi wa inna ilayhi raji'un....