What happened recently

Hey guys,been like so damn long since I haven't updated anything on here,well I just dunno where to express my feelings anymore...Well I saw my most recent ex,yeah I got into another relay which ended quite badly haha,it's been 6 months now and I haven't seen her until well yesterday,guess my 6 months streak ended...When I saw her well she looked different,the same but yet also different.I dunno I've just been down,I wish I wasn't.I don't even know why I feel this way.I feel as if...I miss her? Not exactly I guess...hmmm to whoevers reading this..thanks..and hope you will cont reading from me :)